TheChemist

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[–] [email protected] 6 points 11 hours ago (1 children)

I don't know. I didn't expect anyone to respond.

 

As of now, I just got kicked out of another Discord community just because I was "Too Depressing" for them. Namely, that I often questioned how to make friends, and how to tell when someone is being nice to me, and casually expressed that, I had bad times identifying social cues due to a combination of Autism and a mother that failed to teach me social skills growing up.

I knew, well, people that were mostly acquaintances looking back, for about 2 years. I was barely close to them at all, since even though they were all neurodivergent, that was the only thing I had in common with them.

Unlike them, I wasn't a fan of Genshin Impact (In fact I HATED the game, especially since it was the cause of another online friend abandoning me in the beginning of this year), I wasn't a loud person, I wasn't extroverted. In fact, looking back, it felt more like I was tolerated by them rather than warmly embraced by them. And also, they weren't exactly respecting of my Asexual orientation, the way that, they disregarded how uncomfortable I got whenever they liked to gush over characters and people they really liked and wanted to kiss. They always talked over me.

In fact, I never actually felt like I ever bonded with them, only tolerated them in turn, even after they would always talk over me whenever I wanted to talk in Voice Chat. In the past, they were seemingly okay with me expressing that I had problems with understanding what activities were like, such as the dating scene. But it seemed as though, my last straw for them, was asking why they want to kiss their friends on the lips, and me expressing that I couldn't accept affection easily, due to my parents ruining affection for me. Apparently, I can never tell when what I say affects people, due to my Autism. They apparently expected me to easily shut up and not let what goes in my head bother people.

Apparently, that was the last straw for them, so about 30 minutes ago, I got banned from that Discord Channel. So it seems that, to update my list, I must hide the following parts of myself: My Depression, my lack of common interests with anyone, my lack of art talent, my quietness and shyness and my Asexuality.

I am close to giving up on finding friends, and accepting my likely feeling fate of living a lonely adult life without any friends or without anyone to talk to. I can't find a single person that shares a love of Fairytales, 7 Days To Die and The Fallout Series, and who won't kick me out of their life just because I suffer from Clinical Depression, and I am unable to come up with Extrovert level Small talk.

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 week ago

I shall allow my male OCs to wear bright colors. Pink. Bluish Spruce, even Apple Green.

[–] [email protected] 4 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Why waste food like this?

[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago

"You want me to heal you?! Aren't you the one who decided to use an explosive fireball in melee range?!"

[–] [email protected] 4 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Because humans feel encouraged to further protect that plant against pests.

[–] [email protected] 5 points 3 weeks ago

Luckily for that person, retail workers lost their ability to care long ago.

[–] [email protected] 4 points 3 weeks ago (5 children)

I have been using UBlock and Firefox... I always get mad when I can't get UBlock for the YouTube app of my phone

 

To start, I am not suicidal or having thoughts of suicide, more having constant thoughts of "I hate it here! What is there to be happy about?".

I noticed, ever since I was around 8, I always had this sense of.. sadness within me. Despite what my parents thought, I always felt sad on the inside, and I can never remember a single time when I felt legitimately happy, rather than being forced by my parents and two brothers to act happy just to fit in with social cues.

Again, ever since I was 8, up to today, at 24, I still don't know what it feels like to be happy. And any of the supposed positives in life are completely invisible to me, and any of the negatives are as visible as a bright light at night. I also often felt more "numb" on the inside than sad, although the former isn't a huge improvement.

Most days, I struggle to get out of bed and wake up on time, and fall asleep on time.

I could never relate to any of my peers, who seemed to be able to express happiness that I always felt incapable of feeling. I also always had a sense of "Why are they happy?". Thus, I grew up with no friends, and never had friends until last year. Even then, they are online friends, and are often too busy to talk.

As a final clue, I have always had seasonal depression.... On all 4 seasons of the year. I told my mom about this last year, over the phone.... And she laughed in my face over the phone, saying that "It was funny I claimed something so ridiculous". Ever since, the main reason I take care of myself at all is out of spite for my mom always doubting the existence of depression.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Do you know a place, along with instructions on how to do torrenting? I am a rookie with the practice.

 

As some of you might know, I had asked about this anime previously. However, the place where I had been able to watch it, Aniwave, was recently shut down, so thus I was left without a place to find this cult classic of an anime. This one is very obscure, and was released in 2005, without ever being officially released outside of Japan.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I would want to pet those kitties too. I know they are agile beasts that can kill and eat lots of meat, but they way the one in front is lying down... just really says "Cat".

 

The site is ww4. 9animes.org. (No space in between) I have had no problem watching Animes for free on Firefox and having UBlock Origin (Which Google recently discontinued for Chrome) prevents any ads.

That being said, that was when I was using my home internet. I had no notifications of accessing copyrighted material or the like. I had no problems. What is the likelihood that say, the school would get red flags from me using that site? Could it still work while I am here living on Campus? Should I try to find a VPN? (I am a bit of a rookie with this kind of thing).

[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 months ago

"Do you want to make my Cock Explode?" - Fallout TV Series

[–] [email protected] 5 points 2 months ago (2 children)

I guess Bots started figuring out the previous puzzles.

[–] [email protected] 24 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I heard that, you are legally allowed to Email the Academic Authors, and request said articles, which they are allowed to provide for free.

 

To get it off my chest first... Holy Hell, was it beautiful, every single episode. And I almost never think that about much. This anime, it's an incredible shame that it is so obscure. From what I saw on Tumblr, this is indeed a Cult Classic. Having seen it in it's entirety, I can completely see why it is so beloved by the few that have been able to view it. It's a real shame that, unlike other works directed by the late Osamu Dezaki, such as Lupin III, The Rose of Versailles, even the CLANNAD movie.... this particular shoujo anime never got a release in the United States.

Compared to other adaptations of "The Snow Queen" by Hans Christian Anderson, I would say this is the best adaptation I have seen. It doesn't minimize details like the original fairy tale, it actually expands what sounds like The Hero's Journey in the original fairy tale, into actually being a long journey. Expands the journey into 36, 22-minute episodes. And instead of trying to come up with too much original ideas, the anime makes almost each and every episode an adaptation of another Hans Christian Anderson story. Not just well known classics like 'The Little Mermaid' and 'The Little Match Girl', but also obscure ones like 'The Pea Blossoms' and 'Good For Nothing'.

It can become almost a Scavenger hunt game; To try and find out what HCA Story each episode is based on, or inspired by. As someone who has been getting into HCA Stories not just as a Special Interest, but a full on permanent interest.

Anyways, as for how the characters are written, I really loved that, the anime took advantage of it's extra time, and gave time to not only show more characters, but also to expand the characterization of Kai, Gerda and even The Snow Queen herself. Every other character, even the ones that appear for only a single episode, all felt, well, like real people. I also really loved that, the Anime doesn't jump into the main plot, it builds up for 3 episodes, giving time to show a rather heartwarming and healthy bond between Kai and Gerda, and showing a platonic love between a boy and a girl. This extra time made me feel more for Gerda when she decides on her own, to go through a perilous journey, with half of it on her own, to find and rescue Kai. Thus, just like the book, it does a rare Gender Reversal of the Damsel in Distress Scenario. Very forward for a fairy tale written in 1845.

Gerda is determined, yet she isn't perfect. She needs help from people she meets, since while yes, she has the spirit, and energy, which is channeled into hard work, she isn't shown to be able to solve everything on her own, and she can be reckless a few times. She is only eleven years old. However, those flaws made her more appealing as a character, because I actually wanted to see how she could solve each dilemma

Kai, by contrast, as shown before his personality gets corrupted, is more laid back, more devoted to solitary activities, such as mathematics or school studies or using a loupe to gaze more closely into snowflakes, compared to manual labor such as gleaning spare pieces of wheat. However, that didn't make him come off as lazy, it instead made him feel like he prefers to work smarter, but he isn't malicious about it either, as shown by how he is willing to correct his insufficient effort. Although, one of my few criticisms is that, we don't get to see much more of Kai's personality before he get's corrupted by a mirror shard. In other words, he feels like a twelve year old boy, with his shortcomings

Overall, the main duo from the Fairy Tale, felt true to what few insights the fairy tale gave us of their personalities, while also feeling much more fleshed out as characters. From what I heard, these two wouldn't have been out of place in a Studio Ghibli work. And you can actually feel for Gerda as she goes on her journey, motivated by Platonic love. I also loved that they both loved roses, with Kai having White Roses, and Gerda having Red Roses.

The pacing is amazing, as there are several moments where there is no dialogue, only the characters wordlessly performing an action, therefore giving the viewer a chance to take in what is happening, without it being spelled out for you. There were many moments where I felt an anticipatory impatience, where I wanted to know what would happen, but yet, I knew I would regret trying to skip anything. Even the extra episodes based on existing HCA stories, they don't feel like filler, but instead, opportunities to show Gerda interacting with other people (I.E. She isn't defined solely by her quest of finding her best friend), and the moments that demonstrates the theme of the kindness of strangers, and Gerda being there to occasionally redeem a person that say, wanted to steal from others, where she inspires him to change his ways, or even an opportunity to help someone in need.

The Artwork is great too. What really stands out, is that the artwork was instead, inspired by European Animation from the 1990s and 1980s, rather than an Anime style artwork. The characters are realistically proportioned, and The artwork is always easy on the eyes. Not to mention it frequently uses still frames that were drawn by chalk, a signature "Creator's Thumbprint" of Osamu Dezaki.

Having watched it, it made me wonder, why isn't this anime, which was released in 2005, more well known. I often wish that this was less obscure, and had gotten an official release in the United States. This Anime series also helped me rebuild my creative spark, so I highly recommend this.

 

If so, what trigger warnings should one warn against?

Alternatively, I also saw on another post that said that, the trigger warning wasn't actually serious, but a satire

Either way, should I place a trigger warning if making a post discussing Disney, or do I not actually have to?

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